Once again I am writing my annual what the heck did I learn this year as a 19 year old female
Well first off
Life is hard
As in really hard.
My 19th year didn't start off so well with my mom having to go to the hospital and being hospitalized until new years eve. She had just undergone her last chemo about a week or so prior so her immune system was down already and then she didn't want to ruin the holidays so she braved all the germs from seeing so many people and ended up being hospitalized. But she got out in time for the new year. That was really scary.
Another thing I learned is that having your first new years kiss is fantastic. Ringing in 2013 with a bunch of people I care about and getting to start it with Grant was great!
Netflix is the devil when trying to be productive!
I learned that mastectomies are scary as well. Trying to hold back tears are you try to explain to your teachers that you will have your phone on you and if it starts ringing the reason why is really difficult. But we made it through and I wish I had been home for the recovery process.
Valentines day is great with a boyfriend.
Support can come from unexpected places. My roommate Tori and I got along fine, we weren't super close but she supported me when times were sometimes scary with my mom.
I learned that ethnic food is amazing! Indian, Mexican or Chinese! I'm all over that!
I learned that I am so much more powerful and motivated than I ever thought possible. I can get sh*t done!
I smile a lot more now.
I learned that all those years of blowing out candles and wishing for a good guy to love me finally came true. I fall in love with the most wonderful man a little bit more every day :)
Highways are not nearly as scary as I originally thought.
I learned that you cant let what other people say hurt your heart. If someone doesn't like how you do something or doesn't like who you are or perhaps how you tune your D flat and then decides to embarrass you. Just brush it off. You have so many more people behind you that know you better and know how far you can go and you don't need those voices holding you back. Show them all wrong and don't let them take away your love of something. I almost didn't do band this semester because this one stupid guy decided to embarrass me and I took it to heart and it really ruined my semester of band. But then I brushed it off because you know what? I am doing this class for fun! this is something I love to do! So no one can take that away from me!
Leggings are fantastic!
I found that I'm a lot braver than I thought possible
at camp I would sometimes have to walk back to the cabin in the dark, and it was scary as well but I did it! And I can officially deal with spiders for the most part!
Wear solid color underwear when wearing white Bermuda shorts. Awkward golfing moment...
I learned that to fully love someone you have to love yourself even in the tininiest bit. I for the longest time didn't like what I saw in the mirror. But little by little and with a lot of help from family and friends and colleges and the community I am slowly starting to like what I see. Yes I am tall. Yes I am not that coordinated and sometimes I'm a little scatterbrained, but you know what I'm going to like all those things some day!
This year went by really quick!
And I am really lucky! I am so thankful for all the support and love I have received and I cannot believe where I am. I wouldn't be where I am today if not for all the fantastic people in my life! thank you!
